When a week in paradise is not nearly enough

Last week I took a week vacation to visit one of my best friends and celebrate another one of my best friend’s birthday, who 3 years ago moved to no other place but Paradise aka Cancun, and I for one could have stayed longer! the weather was amazing, so was the company.

We visited Bacalar the lagoon of 7 colours, my  friend and I pretended to be wives to earn a free tour, we visited beaches, we went to Xcaret, we were tourist in Chichén Itzá, we laughed, we swam, we ate and we had a good old time and now I’m left with yearning and a need to go back and work on my tan so my legs stop looking white.

I’ll be back I know, I’m sure of that and I have Japan to look forward next year! but I miss my friend and I miss the beach and I wish I could be paid for being a tourist all year round.

365 Project

Thinking of maybe doing this, taking a picture every day (or try) and share my experiences and finds here once a week, I won’t start today, but plan to start at the beginning of February or March once I have more grasp on what I’m doing, I need to sort everything out, my head has been swirling with millions of ideas and projects and for once I want to actually do and not stop on the plan.

For one be more consistent on this blog is one of my always waiting projects.

I want to kickstart my own business
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Plan my trip to Japan Next year.
Practice Hand Lettering
Practice Painting/Sketching
Start filming and posting videos
Try to play the Ukulele

kind of a Long list, but I’m taking actions to make this happen!

2017 here we go!

 

Almost New year

I’m still figuring out what to share and what not to share here, I’m a complete mess.

I’m starting an instagram for my Art and doodles, I might add some extra commentary around here, maybe Stationery hauls? I buy stationery more than anything else, and it’s the thing I can spend money (lots of it) without feeling completely guilty, I just love everything, the pens, the colours, the tape, the notebooks. I might go crazy.

Anyway check this space, I might post that my artsy stuff, maybe my book reviews or movie reviews? movies? I don’t know

It might just keep being my thought dump, I might post the things I write and keep in a word document, is not like anyone reads this anyway…

Friends

I love my friends to death, otherwise they wouldn’t be my friends right?

But there are times I need me time, more around this time of the year, even though I can say I coped with my Best Team passing away, I still get a really REALLY weird mood around this time of the year. It’s been two years!

I’ve always been a solo soul, I love and have my friends but we are usually not 24/7 in touch, it only happened with her and she is gone, I was feeling the need at first to have company, but not anymore after all I am also my friend, and I mostly like me.

I guess that is a good thing, but maybe I should pay more attention to others even when I am in a weird mood.

Vegan for a Month

So I decided to experiment a little and in March I ate Vegan for the whole month, I also wrote my experiences and the foods I ate!

I will go more on depth on the future Im writing it in both English and spanish to share 🙂

All I have to say is, it was an interesting experience and I hope to keep eating some of my favorite vegan dishes in the future!

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HELLO AGAIN!

After a tough year! I will be back this January 2016 with more posts, more pictures and more projects.

Please join me while I travel (3 big trips this 2016) while I try to discover my craft and on personal projects that make me truly happy. I will also post recipes and lots more 😀

 

See you soon!

 

HAPPY 2016

It still hurts

Today I saw him, and I don’t mean my ex or some guy that had direct contact with me, but him, the guy who last saw my BT, he was in disability and for some reason I never thought I would see him and it would make such impact on me.

Today right in front of me, there he was standing, with a walking stick, he doesn’t know me, he doesn’t know… I can say honestly I let her go some time ago, I still miss her, but I learn to understand she is gone from the physical world for good, however seeing him made my blood pump, and made me think bad things, It’s not that I wish bad to him, I don’t, it’s not his fault.

But I feel a little bit of envy, because he was one of the last persons she saw, and was with and he probably didn’t know just how awesome she was, and did not appreciate her, and also I got angry because you know he got to live, he lived and she didn’t which is quite selfish of me. I did pulled those thoughts away, but I still felt them and I feel bad for feeling that way.

I guess that’s life, and at least I am working to feel good again most of the time, it’s a constant work but it will pay off.

Being happy doesn’t make me love her less or miss her less, it makes me happy and I bet she would love to see me happy.

it’s all relative, she is still with me.

It’s almost 2015

It is almost 2015 and I’ve been ready for this year to end since May.

Funny how everytime I feel sad or vulnerable I come and write here, I guess this way I feel like I have somewhere to just complain or be sad.

I have to agree 2014 has not been all bad, however the bad definitely outweighs the good, which is sad, but a new job and better pay will never replace my Best Friend, I guess that is why I am feeling nostalgic lately.

I visited my Best Team’s parents this weekend and while it was amazing to see them and it was nice to talk to them and all the family (I was lucky and got to see all her siblings too) It is still heartbreaking, her dad still sees me and brusts into tears and I really can’t blame him, when he saw me on the past it was because she was there with me and  needless to say this time she wasn’t.

Also I’ve been missing spending time with her, this season we saw eachother a lot, maybe because we were just in a good mood or maybe the Christmas spirit, last year we did a shopping spree, had dinner, had a bunch of teas, I saw her before Christmas on the 23rd and then right back when she got home from Tepic. And I miss talking with her, I was just yesterday at Forever 21 trying to find some tights to wear on the Christmas party at the office and I got a flashback of us shopping last year chasing a particular girl for the purse she wanted, and it made me happy to have those fun memories, but later on it made me sad, because I was alone…

This year no-one will be missing the Christmas dinner no-one has asked yet, she ALWAYS asked, got things going, but this year Thanksgiving was for all more of a commitment than my friends wanting to be there, and it’s sad because I kind of feel that was the last one, the last thanksgiving I will be celebrating, mostly because no-one cares, and she did, we went through our next year goals together and well that is not happening again, I guess 2015 will be about the new traditions, but I will sure miss the old,

Good things happened, don’t get me wrong but 70% of this year it’s been sad and I’ve spent crying…

So yes I am crying and I am sad, but I am also happy this year will be ending soon, I can’t wait to start fresh, get a car, go travelling with my mom, do personal projects and focus on me, this next year I will try to give me happiness, because that is how it should be it’s clear not just today but in general my happiness it’s in my hands and I can’t be placing something so important in the hands of others…

How to say Goodbye to a Friend…

2014 for my was the year of saying goodbye, to a lot of things, the most important: Friends, sure I made strong bonds with a few more but it doesn’t make it any easier, Sandy is leaving, she is moving to Cancun, she received a Job offer she can’t refuse and I honestly think it’s the best for her, she will be finally doing full time the thing she loves.

She was part of the amazing trio which was Tere (My BT), Sandy and I, I can’t remember exactly how we started to hang out, I mean at least the 3 of us, I guess it just happened organically, each brought something to the group, and looking back, we were so different not only from eachother but from within.

In May we lost Tere physically forever and now I am losing Sandy which I must say I’m glad it’s not forever but it’s far, and far is not close and I am going to miss her, the second piece of the trio is going away leaving the last part here.

I am fine, I am happy for her and I am thinking on the positive side of things, I am not losing a friend I am saying see you later to one and I know she will do amazingly there, however it makes me want to do something and do it now.

I need to start doing the things I love instead of just thinking about doing them, blog more, travel more, take more pictures, just do more…

This post is not making much sense, it helps though to let everything go, get it out of my head…