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Ok, it’s been a while since my head started with this whole Room project, I failed completely if I must say, but I’ll give it a try again, I was actually wandering around urban outfitters and I found a couple of bedspreads I liked, Inspiration!

I wanted to do this whole beach kind of theme but I guess I decided I want something more hippie… if that’s even the correct word for it, I don’t know, I had drawings and stuff but now I’m blank… just looking for inspiration

so I found this super awesome bedspreads, I’d order and get over with it BUUUUUUT! I like challenge so I still have my mind in to doing it myself!

so here some of the vibes I’d like… what do you guys think? any suggestions?

of course this bedding won’t be made until probably the end of my semester which is about a month away! which means I’ll be super busy with the FIL and going crazy because I still have 2 big projects to go… oh well

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It’s been a while since the last time I posted something, first due the database being all messed up, then laziness yes I suck

Today I went to watch Eat Pray Love with mom, she saw the commercials a while ago on tv and told me she wanted to watch it,  but the movie was showing only on México City up until next week…

The movie? great, I actually enjoyed it a lot, needless to say made me want to go and travel the world right away, I always have my travelling button on, but this movie made me want to do it even more,  obviously I can’t do it now… blah!

Luckily we ate before the movie, OMG the food, It looked so good is not even funny, I wanted to try a little bit of everything!

anyway went we headed out I asked mom what did she think about it, she said she liked it, and that she didn’t expected it to be so deep…

the movie did got me thinking, I mean we strive to be happy, but sometimes we just settle because we are afraid that if we change something, it may turn out bad, so we just really pretend to be happy…  I can’t say I’ve been static, because I somehow found the way to step out of my element a couple of times, and honestly, it does wonders to someone, as a person, I just wish I could do it more often…

Sometimes we are so hung up on pleasing everyone we forget about ourselves, I mean  it happens to me, a lot, at least with my family, sometimes it’s exhausting to live up to their expectations, when what I should do it’s be in peace with myself and stop thinking I may disappoint someone,  because probably I won’t, but if I do, what can I do, just be unhappy?  at the end of the day, I need to start forgiving myself and stop waiting for the forgiveness of the world, if that makes sense at all…

That’s why sometimes I wish I could step away from the family and live somewhere else… not because I don’t love them, because honestly I think my family is the thing I love the most in this world, but I also know how draining they can be… believe me I’m not even joking, it’s a needy family and I love them to bits but sometimes it’s exhausting…

The reason I’m not particularly interested on getting a boyfriend it’s the fact that I ‘ll have one more person to live up to, and it shouldn’t be like that, but it is, and yes I’m afraid… because it also means I’ll be handing my heart and there’s a big chance it could end up broken, I guess is silly…

Balance is hard, but not impossible…

now I’m just rambling, if you have the chance go and watch, it’s worth it…

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This week I’ve been a MESS a complete mess! I guess it’s supposed to happen every once in a while right?

Actually the week started off fine… apparently I’ll be doing my social service at the FIL which is a big 9 day event in November  here in my city, it’s called the International Fair of the Book, since I love books it seems fitting right? plus I’ll be working on the kids section,  this year’s theme is monsters, so it should be fun, we’ll be designing the surroundings and helping out…  I’m still not quite sure about the times and such but I guess we’ll be finding out soon monday

then tuesday came along… so I tuned in glee live for the first time since I usually don’t mind waiting for the episode to download and stuff,  but there was a lot of streaming links coming to me and they actually worked just fine, so I watched the finale and it was all fine, I actually LOVED the finale, but that’s an other fangirl story I won’t be sharing here…

after it finished I started working on my design project and BOOM weather played it’s part and after weeks of sun and heat it decided to bring a big thunder storm… the electricity on the street went off… of course I was freaking out, its my nature but I finally went to bed realizing it wasn’t coming back soon and set my alarm to 5 so I could take the files of my oh so fragile computer, well FAIL, no electricity… the lights came out at almost 9am! so I missed school (fail again)  then I got the news I had to do some team stuff which was ok… so I worked all day on that

then yesterday I went to school… again to help out,  we finally finished our part of the job and left for good, I was content until I get the news the other team needs help and we HAVE to help them, at this point I was mad, because we did our part with no help whatsoever! but ok whatever I prepared myself mentally to go…

This morning I wake up, I check my e-mail, breakfast, and get ready to go to school, I do the 1 1/2 hour trip to uni to be told when I arrived that they cancelled the reunion last night “didn’t anyone told you?” yes sure, because I’d be there instead of working on my final project! I was so mad!  why ANYONE told me… I mean they have my e-mail they have my cellphone, any message would’ve been good! but NO they were too busy staying home…. so yes I said out loud I wanted them to be eaten by a lion and then posted it on twitter because i had to let it go

So I’m still a bit mad, mainly to my team because they know how long is my trip to school and they knew how upset I was because I was going to lose precious hours of work…

enough with the negative thoughts… I’ll go now, work on my assignment and let go a little, tomorrow will be a better day!

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So I’m a little worried, I’m supposed to be writing my thesis (tomorrow is the 1st deadline *sigh*) but I have something to let out

So I got a call from my cousin (16 years old) today, she was literally in a valley of tears, the thing is she was forbidden to see her boyfriend, and she is crushed obviously since she is her words “in love with him”, she just said how unfair it was and how she didn’t know if she could wait 2 years to see him again, her parents pretty much told her she was going to be more-less in lock down until she’s 18, I will not reveal what the big problem was, since many of you may already have a clue… but it just breaks my heart,  I don’t think locking her up and all that will actually make things better… but I can’t really talk to my uncles about it,  one: is none of my business and 2: she told me her parents don’t want anyone to know about this drama…

I think they might know I know though, but I’m not sure how they’ll take it on me, for now we’re inviting her over for the weekend with the excuse of her helping me babysit my godson and his sister, so I hope they let her come, so she can get out of her house and relax a little…

seriously I never had this amount of drama in my teens (not even close)…. I’m kind of glad for that, but poor thing

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I’m 24 today,  and it made me realize time flies by… it’ll never stop,  and you have to take every opportunity you can to make your dreams come true, to take a chance to make things different, to be happy!

I’m quite grateful, is early and I already got many, many congratulations, many from people I might not expected, some from all over the world (literally), I hope they all know how much they made my day, they made it happier, and better, today I’ll be attending school with a big smile in my face, thanks to the lovely words I got so far, that’s all I need, I wish I could give them all a big hug… but in many cases we’ll have to wait a long time… I’m not celebrating today with a big party, or a small reunion… I’ll be celebrating personally quietly maybe at home after school… and making some homework why not?

Today I came across the blog of one of my friends,  it made me realize June is LGBT Pride month, it makes me a little happy that the month I was born is also celebrating equality…

I have a few gay friends,  both online and off, and I hate when people use disrespectful words to refer to them, to insult other people, calling them gay as insult or using a hateful word is just completely out of  place,  why judge people only because of who they like, or love, it’s just so unfair, to see there’s still this kind of hate in humanity… I hope we can have a better world in the future a word where it’s ok being who you are, the world is a scary place as it it…

This is one of the few things I’m not happy about my country, there’s still a lot of hate,  and I find it terrible,  but I will make sure my kids don’t grow with this kind of hate, I’ll make sure they respect everyone for who they are, I know is not a lot, and I’m still working on the awareness in my family… and my city is thankfully becoming more aware…

The fact that there’s still not a law that allows EVERYONE to marry in every single part of this world, makes me sad, who are they to tell someone who they can marry or who they can’t, I’m sorry but I don’t believe is fair…  It makes me ant to yell so many people OPEN YOUR MIND, OPEN YOUR HEART

Anyway I’m not too good with words you will be better off reading Kaitlyn’s blog, her words are way better than mine.

HAPPY JUNE!!!!

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So we’ve reached that part of the semester where the homework amount is crazy, late nights early mornings, no-one has time to do anything and we are pretty much freaking out for the amount of work swearing we’re not going to make it… we are just being dramatic, so far I’ve made it, but after a year of not getting so tense about this stuff I’m a bit freaked out

This week will be deadly, I have to write a bunch of pages for my thesis, we are working on the design project,  marketing exam and final project and on top of that my graphic expression teacher doesn’t like my sketching enough to let me start my watercolour project  making the class that was supposed to be the most relaxing one quite annoying…

My birthday plans this year are non existent, everybody is busy and to be honest I’m sure I’ll even forget it… I may spend the hole year thinking I’m still 23! somehow I’m not excited about this day this year…

Yesterday I went to this course with mom,  is a 3 full day kind of workshop, and it’ll be taking place each month, the first session was yesterday and to be honest I wasn’t too excited about spending all my day in a room listening to someone talk and all that, but I enjoyed it a lot, is like a personal knowledge kind of course, we explore 9 different personalities, you get to find which one is yours and how you can make the most of it… sounds lame but it was really cool, the lady giving it is a really good speaker!

back to work now

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I wish I could say I made a big progress but I’d be lying… with all the school projects and my weekends pretty much taken away from me, I really haven’t done much, I still have to go fabric hunting, but I’m thinking on doing that until next week, first things first!

I have to tidy up my room, it (no joke) looks like the closet and school drawers exploded and I hate it, but I just never seem to find the time to clean!  so this weekend I’m not going to Jackie’s and I’ll stay like a hermit to do a deep cleaning

Uni ends early on Friday  and mom won’t be here until night time which gives me a free pass for louder music! I just have to figure out what to eat… simple

so hopefully if school doesn’t get on the way I’ll have fabric and hopefully will start working on my duvet cover with grandma

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Today in México is mother’s day, I know in most of the world celebrates the 2nd Sunday of the month (except for england!), but here in México is May 10th! so Happy Mother’s day to all the moms out there!!!!! (a late congrats for those who celebrated it on sunday)

I’m quite lucky! my mom is my best friends, she knows me perfectly and she is always there for me! I know I can tell her everything, I often enjoy my time with her, we watch movies, chat and joke! I love her deeply and I’m really proud of her!

I got her a perfume she likes and a dvd, of course with a little card to complement, is not much, but is all I can really afford right now! and I was banned to do some baking since mom is on a diet

we are going to have lunch/dinner at my grandma’s house, italian! yummy! everyone will be there, so it should be fun! I’m taking my camera even though I’m not keen on being on a picture, since with this hot (really HOT) weather my hair looks simply terrible and so does my face

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Apparently I’m getting old… yes, we all are actually…

Last week when I was making breakfast (somehow I tend to “play” mom Saturday mornings), so I took my brother’s psp (which I’m carrying everywhere, poor bro indeed) and started my music, my 16 year old cousin came along telling me she could take care of the music, I asked her why, and her reply was: “no offence your music is kind of old”

yes people my music is old, because I’m a bit old, plus the fact I like some oldies doesn’t help much I guess!

hard to believe that kid was once dancing around the living room dancing to S Club 7′s music with me ( yes you are reading right!) thinking I was cool

In less than a month I turn 24! and can’t believe it! this year has gone so fast! I can still smell of the cold walking down the streets in England!

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On Saturday we were set to attend to my mom’s cousin, who’s more around my age (we used to play when we were little with Alina, my cousin), it was good, short and had a bit of disaster on there, let’s just say the place they rented for the reception had some troubles with the neighbourhood and they didn’t let anyone in by car… so we had to be transported literally on a van, by groups, thanks to this little adventure my tights broke, so I had a big hole in my knee when I arrived, luckily I took some footless tights just in case…

We danced a bit, ate, and everything went fine… During the reception my mom told me her friend just invited us to go to her flat at the beach, we had to leave the next morning and we would be back by Thursday night, now due holiday stuff I had Monday off and missing Tuesday and Wednesday, wouldn’t be a problem, not only I’m never late and always attend to class, but I always work hard and I knew there wouldn’t be problem with my teachers, now Thursday was an other story, I had  a final work to deliver and finish my design project, so after a lot of thinking and talking I went with mom but I’d be back on Wednesday to finish off all I needed, of course I took homework with me to work on it at nights!

It was nice and relaxing, last minute and I had no internet connection but I managed to finish some work…

that was so not like me,  but we are supposed to do something bold and different once in a while right? I just wish I’d dare to do it more often, maybe one day I’ll be able to be a social butterfly, just for one day, or a couple of hours, I’m trying… what about you?

pictures asap

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