When a week in paradise is not nearly enough

Last week I took a week vacation to visit one of my best friends and celebrate another one of my best friend’s birthday, who 3 years ago moved to no other place but Paradise aka Cancun, and I for one could have stayed longer! the weather was amazing, so was the company.

We visited Bacalar the lagoon of 7 colours, my  friend and I pretended to be wives to earn a free tour, we visited beaches, we went to Xcaret, we were tourist in Chichén Itzá, we laughed, we swam, we ate and we had a good old time and now I’m left with yearning and a need to go back and work on my tan so my legs stop looking white.

I’ll be back I know, I’m sure of that and I have Japan to look forward next year! but I miss my friend and I miss the beach and I wish I could be paid for being a tourist all year round.

365 Project

Thinking of maybe doing this, taking a picture every day (or try) and share my experiences and finds here once a week, I won’t start today, but plan to start at the beginning of February or March once I have more grasp on what I’m doing, I need to sort everything out, my head has been swirling with millions of ideas and projects and for once I want to actually do and not stop on the plan.

For one be more consistent on this blog is one of my always waiting projects.

I want to kickstart my own business
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Plan my trip to Japan Next year.
Practice Hand Lettering
Practice Painting/Sketching
Start filming and posting videos
Try to play the Ukulele

kind of a Long list, but I’m taking actions to make this happen!

2017 here we go!

 

Almost New year

I’m still figuring out what to share and what not to share here, I’m a complete mess.

I’m starting an instagram for my Art and doodles, I might add some extra commentary around here, maybe Stationery hauls? I buy stationery more than anything else, and it’s the thing I can spend money (lots of it) without feeling completely guilty, I just love everything, the pens, the colours, the tape, the notebooks. I might go crazy.

Anyway check this space, I might post that my artsy stuff, maybe my book reviews or movie reviews? movies? I don’t know

It might just keep being my thought dump, I might post the things I write and keep in a word document, is not like anyone reads this anyway…

Friends

I love my friends to death, otherwise they wouldn’t be my friends right?

But there are times I need me time, more around this time of the year, even though I can say I coped with my Best Team passing away, I still get a really REALLY weird mood around this time of the year. It’s been two years!

I’ve always been a solo soul, I love and have my friends but we are usually not 24/7 in touch, it only happened with her and she is gone, I was feeling the need at first to have company, but not anymore after all I am also my friend, and I mostly like me.

I guess that is a good thing, but maybe I should pay more attention to others even when I am in a weird mood.

Vegan for a Month

So I decided to experiment a little and in March I ate Vegan for the whole month, I also wrote my experiences and the foods I ate!

I will go more on depth on the future Im writing it in both English and spanish to share 🙂

All I have to say is, it was an interesting experience and I hope to keep eating some of my favorite vegan dishes in the future!

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HELLO AGAIN!

After a tough year! I will be back this January 2016 with more posts, more pictures and more projects.

Please join me while I travel (3 big trips this 2016) while I try to discover my craft and on personal projects that make me truly happy. I will also post recipes and lots more 😀

 

See you soon!

 

HAPPY 2016

Travelling alone

A lot of people actually prefer just to travel with someone, I guess it’s natural and it makes you feel “safer” in a way, however I am sure to say, there is nothing like travelling alone.

Don’t get me wrong, I love people, and I like travelling with people, however I am happier when I travel alone, not because there is some big issues, it’s more about the little things…

I usually never get mad when I am travelling alone, I mean I usually go with the flow, I once was stuck in Paris not knowing if I was going to make it to London to my Show and I wasn’t mad, I was worried that’s for sure, but I went with the flow, I let it be and I am happy to report everything turned out great! I even had salmon for Breakfast (which I love, that’s why it’s a good thing) 🙂

I guess I developed that non-fussy trait that when I am with other people it activates, because if everyone is complaining it makes me notice and it makes me want to complain too, silly I know, but it’s true attitude is contagious people!

Let me break it down for you, when you travel alone you get to:

1. Do whatever you want, you don’t feel like staying in the museum anymore? you are hungry? you want to change the plan? it’s all good, whatever makes you happy 🙂

2. Eat whatever you want, and eat whenever you want, you feel hungry in the middle of the park and feel like paying for that overpriced hotdog and skip snacks? you feel like eating in a fancy restaurant? you are running low in cash and want to eat cheap fast food? go for it! nobody cares! in a good way, because you get to do whatever.

3. Observe, it might sound silly but people get in the way of just seeing sometimes, the feeling of getting on top of the eiffel tower and just fill yourself with the sights, or walk besides the Thames and just see, enjoy the sight.

I guess those kind of make me look like I hate people, I don’t I do agree travelling with someone makes many things more convenient, at the end of the day two minds are better than one when you are trying to understand something.

I love travelling with people, I just recently made a trip with not only friends but people I barely new and even though it was interesting and a learning experience, it made me cherish all my traveling alone, it made me feel like I wasn’t missing out like many say, because for me it’s ok to be alone, I enjoy being alone out of my element, it also makes me grow and to be honest it makes me so very happy.

If you are afraid of travelling alone, don’t be, try it at least once in your life, you will absolutely love it! Just go with the flow and enjoy!

 

It still hurts

Today I saw him, and I don’t mean my ex or some guy that had direct contact with me, but him, the guy who last saw my BT, he was in disability and for some reason I never thought I would see him and it would make such impact on me.

Today right in front of me, there he was standing, with a walking stick, he doesn’t know me, he doesn’t know… I can say honestly I let her go some time ago, I still miss her, but I learn to understand she is gone from the physical world for good, however seeing him made my blood pump, and made me think bad things, It’s not that I wish bad to him, I don’t, it’s not his fault.

But I feel a little bit of envy, because he was one of the last persons she saw, and was with and he probably didn’t know just how awesome she was, and did not appreciate her, and also I got angry because you know he got to live, he lived and she didn’t which is quite selfish of me. I did pulled those thoughts away, but I still felt them and I feel bad for feeling that way.

I guess that’s life, and at least I am working to feel good again most of the time, it’s a constant work but it will pay off.

Being happy doesn’t make me love her less or miss her less, it makes me happy and I bet she would love to see me happy.

it’s all relative, she is still with me.

It’s almost 2015

It is almost 2015 and I’ve been ready for this year to end since May.

Funny how everytime I feel sad or vulnerable I come and write here, I guess this way I feel like I have somewhere to just complain or be sad.

I have to agree 2014 has not been all bad, however the bad definitely outweighs the good, which is sad, but a new job and better pay will never replace my Best Friend, I guess that is why I am feeling nostalgic lately.

I visited my Best Team’s parents this weekend and while it was amazing to see them and it was nice to talk to them and all the family (I was lucky and got to see all her siblings too) It is still heartbreaking, her dad still sees me and brusts into tears and I really can’t blame him, when he saw me on the past it was because she was there with me and  needless to say this time she wasn’t.

Also I’ve been missing spending time with her, this season we saw eachother a lot, maybe because we were just in a good mood or maybe the Christmas spirit, last year we did a shopping spree, had dinner, had a bunch of teas, I saw her before Christmas on the 23rd and then right back when she got home from Tepic. And I miss talking with her, I was just yesterday at Forever 21 trying to find some tights to wear on the Christmas party at the office and I got a flashback of us shopping last year chasing a particular girl for the purse she wanted, and it made me happy to have those fun memories, but later on it made me sad, because I was alone…

This year no-one will be missing the Christmas dinner no-one has asked yet, she ALWAYS asked, got things going, but this year Thanksgiving was for all more of a commitment than my friends wanting to be there, and it’s sad because I kind of feel that was the last one, the last thanksgiving I will be celebrating, mostly because no-one cares, and she did, we went through our next year goals together and well that is not happening again, I guess 2015 will be about the new traditions, but I will sure miss the old,

Good things happened, don’t get me wrong but 70% of this year it’s been sad and I’ve spent crying…

So yes I am crying and I am sad, but I am also happy this year will be ending soon, I can’t wait to start fresh, get a car, go travelling with my mom, do personal projects and focus on me, this next year I will try to give me happiness, because that is how it should be it’s clear not just today but in general my happiness it’s in my hands and I can’t be placing something so important in the hands of others…